YMonday, January 23, 2006
loneliness is not necessarily by choice..u can be accompanied with what u already have..
rite? and ultimately, ur not alone..hmm...
im uncertain of my own statement..but somehow, i think its possible.
can't it be possible? it can.i noe it can.(wink)
so im accompanied with beautiful sisters..lovely brother and sister-in-law..adorable nephews and niece and challenging yet grateful parents..and not forgetting my well-worth buddies..
sooo..im nnot really lonely..i think.haha.
(im trying to psycho myself here)...
with this, i believe that one need to be on their own literally to really know how it feels like to be lonely..hmm...
is being lonely really all that? (i'm questioning myself now..heh.)
HONESTLY, i think being lonely is not only about being physically on your own..or not having anyone to love-love is just too soonn to declare.
so to me, being lonely is more than that. and in my case, it's when u dun have the someone to really share your ups and downs with..not as a family member..or solely as a fren.. it's as someone who willingly cares for u..u noe wat i mean?
not like a fren..or a relative..just as someone special..doing all those big and little things to tell you that he cares..to show you how much u mean to him..that sort.
that someone i have yet to come across..maybe soonn..i duno..(smiling)
i haven't been day-dreaming or imagining much..BUT lately, i think i've been doin too much of it..haha..
and it's not good to day dream..
believe me..cause it gives you hope in sth that's totally uncertain..to see something that u've always wanted..making you more certain that it's what ur sure of, that it's wat u want.
then u hope and u hope..and u fly really high..and then, when the outcome is not to ur desire,
u fall..u fall realy hard that it takes a long time to heal..-the result of flying too high.
i dun wana be in that place...where i would fall..
but i wun stop dreaming..i want to believe that he'll come..one day..
that he might just pop out of nowhere and serenade me..
the time will come..one fine day.. :)
hehe..for now..i think i'll be patient.. -wink2-
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